cramps

suck...but they let me just sit and relax. They take my mind off the hectic schedule that is my life. I'm going to Sacramento that I deep down hope will be my last tennis competition...I am kinda sorta really ready for it to be over. I mean I know I say I'm gonna come back next year if my coach can come back, but I kinda hope she doesn't but if she does, whatever...I guess. Ok, Samantha 3? 4? more days. Just a little bit more. But other than that I have to get started on that photography assignment. It's due next thursday: 20 pictures that embody 20 sociological concepts. I can do it.

Ok, next...I really love my boyfriend. I don't know if it's the hormones raging through my body. But I really and truly love him. I can't describe how appreciative I am to have him love me back. Although our relationship has been pretty rough these past couple months...and I really can't stand him sometimes...he always seems to bring me back to him. As much as I can say I don't need him sometimes or I don't want him...it's never the truth. He has become not only my lover...he is really one of my best friends. I never thought that things like this really happen. But he kind of has given me the back the hope that there are still more great people that I haven't met yet that I can let into my life. Coming back from that place I thought that I couldn't meet anyone else anymore...and that all the people I already knew were the only people that mattered. I thought that I couldn't find anymore best friends to fit into the PJR category..but I found a new one in him. Oh myyy...I love him so much..sorry if this is grosss...but I dont think that I could ever find the words to tell him how I really feel without stumbling..cause believe it or not...9 months into this...he still makes me nervous. If he does read this...I love love loveeeee you. ♥

But the real point is....is that summer is coming and I can't wait for this sucky first year of college to end. I need a fresh new start.

The Pick Me Up of the day

Summer is ALMOST here...I am excited for summer school. I don't know why though...I am going to be in summer school, and I will probably have a job by then. So, I don't understand why I'm so excited about all the free time I'm going to have. But I guess I'm just so excited by the thought of summer...the thought of having a lot of friends having somewhat of free time, the thought of nice long hot days, where there is more chance of you not having other things to do, but just knock out at the beach.....ahhhhh summer..nice sweet summer is almost here. Ok, so my goal, and for the few of you who know me is a understandable goal, is to be tan..not just dark and tan, but even...alll over me zebra body. Playing tennis and getting tan on only parts of my body has caused me for as long as I remember never for once in my life be even. So my tan in my goal for this summer. But these leaves me room for different ways I can be tanned. :)

For example:

baked @ the beach :)walking the streets of Italy
or just sweating and tanning at the club? i guess on those hot LA nights? oh whatever..

Ok well I'm excited for summer and thats that...hopefully it'll live up to last year...cuz last year...yep mmhmmm. ;)